It's that time again

Inevitably I find myself reviewing the year on New Year's Eve. This year has been a different one. It has been a year of adjustments. It has been a wonderful one, but also difficult in many ways. I was unprepared for some of the ways life has changed for me since having Eden. I am certainly not complaining. She is too wonderful for words. So is my loving husband. I was thinking about him a lot today. He is such a great wonderful example of Christ-like love. He has put up with my "Adjustments" like a trooper! I love him so much. My one major "Resolution" this year will have to be to love Rodney better. I want to put more effort into our relationship. I want to make date nights a priority. I want to become an expert at taking care of my man. He certainly deserves it. I am excited about the year to come for many reasons. God never ceases to amaze me, and I'm sure this year will be no exception.

Me Rambling About Food

This has nothing worthwhile in it, just to warn you before you waste time reading it....I am normally pretty good about eating healthy, but this week I have these....desires....Like wanting to eat 5 Big Macs in a sitting, a triple sized portion of spaghtti and meatsauce, original recipe fried chicken (Mmmmm, if you could see me right now I'm drooling.) What is wrong with me???? Maybe it's years of backlogged food cravings catching up to me. I think I'm falling off the wagon.haha. Someone help me please. I can only be strong for so long. (;

Praise the Lord with ME!!

I just got back from the pediatric cardiologist for Eden. He said that there is a soft murmur, but it isn't being caused by a faulty heart. He said her heart is healthy and functioning normally. Yay!!! They did an EKG and an Echo. They gave me a little ultrasound picture of her heart. (: Praise God! He is good to me. My little girl is going to be okay!

Thankful

I was a little sad this year because we had a tight budget for Christmas. It kinda put me out of the Christmas spirit, even though I know I should be focused on the TRUE reason for Christmas. I always enjoy picking out things I think my loved ones would like, but I'm starting to be glad that we aren't going crazy this year. It has cut out a lot of busy-ness, and I've had more time with my sweet family! I guess I'm thankful we don't have much, because I have more time to enjoy the riches God has already given to me. Merry Christmas, and "God Bless Us Everyone(*Tiny Tim Voice*)".

An Odd Thought

We all "know" that we are going to die. Today, for some reason, it just hit me that I am not going to be young forever. In fact, someday I will die. My physical body, that I have become so accustomed to, will stop functioning and I will be gone from this world. I know these things are things we all accept, but does it ever really sink in? Does it ever seem real to you? I can't picture anything outside of what I know. I can't imagine ever being out of this body. I really am not afraid. I hope this doesn't sound to macabre. I don't mean it to be. I know that I go to my real home. Maybe death seems unnatural and wrong to us sometimes because we were created to be eternal creatures. I am excited to see what the "other side" looks like. I know it probably isn't anything like what I've been picturing my whole life.

Stinkin' Cello Players

I'm trying to get the Women's Christmas Party going this year at my church. It's been pretty smooth so far, except for the music. I had this cello player lined up and was pretty excited about it. He had told me it shouldn't be a problem. When I called to confirm this morning he was already booked for that date. He gave me a phone number of another cello player and he was a no-go too. Stink! Looks like we are stuck with the old cd player in the corner piping out Manheim Steamroller.

Ba Humbug

I am having a hard time getting into the Christmas spirit this year, which is not normal for me. Normally, I'm ready to put the tree up about July. Maybe it's because we are already very busy and the though of batteling Eden away from the Christmas tree for a month is not very inviting. How do you balance being available to God and to others while not sucking the life right out of your life? This is not how I want my baby to grow up, constantly running here and there. I want her to have time to be a kid, to play, to make messes, and to enjoy her childhood. I hope that I can get this figured out before she gets old enough to notice...

Where I'm at....

I used to think that I was something special. I used to think I was a star that only needed one chance to rock the world. While I knew I could never have saved myself, God obviously had chosen me for my abundant potential and amazing natural talent. Funny how the older I get the more foolish I begin to look in my own eyes. The more experience I get the more I see how little "Natural" talent I really posess, but that's the really cool thing about being a christian. That is not something I have to be ashamed about. It is an amazing opportunity for my God to be glorfied. I'm not the world's most amazing guitar player, or the best singer you have ever heard. I do not have the quickest wit, and I am far from being well educated. That is what is so cool about God. Instead of all those things disqualifying me from God using me, they actually qualify me for His use. God has chosen me not because I have great ability, God has chosen me because of my lack of ability to further glorify Himself. There is something so freeing about that. Praise God! He alone can do what He has done in and with my life!!! I can truly say it is not my doing.