Ba Humbug

I am having a hard time getting into the Christmas spirit this year, which is not normal for me. Normally, I'm ready to put the tree up about July. Maybe it's because we are already very busy and the though of batteling Eden away from the Christmas tree for a month is not very inviting. How do you balance being available to God and to others while not sucking the life right out of your life? This is not how I want my baby to grow up, constantly running here and there. I want her to have time to be a kid, to play, to make messes, and to enjoy her childhood. I hope that I can get this figured out before she gets old enough to notice...

Where I'm at....

I used to think that I was something special. I used to think I was a star that only needed one chance to rock the world. While I knew I could never have saved myself, God obviously had chosen me for my abundant potential and amazing natural talent. Funny how the older I get the more foolish I begin to look in my own eyes. The more experience I get the more I see how little "Natural" talent I really posess, but that's the really cool thing about being a christian. That is not something I have to be ashamed about. It is an amazing opportunity for my God to be glorfied. I'm not the world's most amazing guitar player, or the best singer you have ever heard. I do not have the quickest wit, and I am far from being well educated. That is what is so cool about God. Instead of all those things disqualifying me from God using me, they actually qualify me for His use. God has chosen me not because I have great ability, God has chosen me because of my lack of ability to further glorify Himself. There is something so freeing about that. Praise God! He alone can do what He has done in and with my life!!! I can truly say it is not my doing.