Lasting Beauty

I have always known in my head that "Inner beauty is what matters". It is just something you hear over and over growing up in church, but I don't know that it is in my heart. I heard a song the other day, as I was sweating away on the stair climber at the Y (of all places), that reminded me of how important the inner part of me is as opposed to the outward one. A line of that song said, "Beauty fails, but You are always the same, always faithful." Gosh, that just moved me. God is forever and forever the most beautiful thing we will ever see.
It got me thinking, if I could see what He sees of me, what would that be? I do have to admit it isn't all that pretty. I want to be more caring, genuinely caring. I want to love people, not just act like I do. I want to serve purely, with God as my motivation. I want to be willing to let God bring glory to Himself through me by any means he chooses, not just by the means I want Him to use. I am ashamed to admit that I am focused far to much on the way other's see me. I want to look like I'm being spiritual, but that is completely irrelevant if I am not actually being spiritual on the inside. I am confident that God will bring this fruit of a beautiful inner woman into my life. I'm so glad I don't have to do it myself. When I get to heaven to see God in all His beauty, I won't be saying, "Thank goodness I spent all those hours at the gym, because now I look awesome!". I will be glad that I let God have His way with the inward parts of who I am.

Zumba Confession.

I have to admit that I am a little embarrassed to be in the Zumba class. I can feel the "real" workout people judging me. They look very serious as they peak in the door on the way to do some "real" working out, while I'm shaking what my momma gave me. I feel the need to stop them and explain that I'm a serious work-out person too!!! haha. It's just a lot of fun. Too fun to actually be a "real" workout. I have just come to the conclusion that I am very, very white, and so doomed to look silly doing this.

It's that time again

Inevitably I find myself reviewing the year on New Year's Eve. This year has been a different one. It has been a year of adjustments. It has been a wonderful one, but also difficult in many ways. I was unprepared for some of the ways life has changed for me since having Eden. I am certainly not complaining. She is too wonderful for words. So is my loving husband. I was thinking about him a lot today. He is such a great wonderful example of Christ-like love. He has put up with my "Adjustments" like a trooper! I love him so much. My one major "Resolution" this year will have to be to love Rodney better. I want to put more effort into our relationship. I want to make date nights a priority. I want to become an expert at taking care of my man. He certainly deserves it. I am excited about the year to come for many reasons. God never ceases to amaze me, and I'm sure this year will be no exception.

Me Rambling About Food

This has nothing worthwhile in it, just to warn you before you waste time reading it....I am normally pretty good about eating healthy, but this week I have these....desires....Like wanting to eat 5 Big Macs in a sitting, a triple sized portion of spaghtti and meatsauce, original recipe fried chicken (Mmmmm, if you could see me right now I'm drooling.) What is wrong with me???? Maybe it's years of backlogged food cravings catching up to me. I think I'm falling off the wagon.haha. Someone help me please. I can only be strong for so long. (;

Praise the Lord with ME!!

I just got back from the pediatric cardiologist for Eden. He said that there is a soft murmur, but it isn't being caused by a faulty heart. He said her heart is healthy and functioning normally. Yay!!! They did an EKG and an Echo. They gave me a little ultrasound picture of her heart. (: Praise God! He is good to me. My little girl is going to be okay!

Thankful

I was a little sad this year because we had a tight budget for Christmas. It kinda put me out of the Christmas spirit, even though I know I should be focused on the TRUE reason for Christmas. I always enjoy picking out things I think my loved ones would like, but I'm starting to be glad that we aren't going crazy this year. It has cut out a lot of busy-ness, and I've had more time with my sweet family! I guess I'm thankful we don't have much, because I have more time to enjoy the riches God has already given to me. Merry Christmas, and "God Bless Us Everyone(*Tiny Tim Voice*)".

An Odd Thought

We all "know" that we are going to die. Today, for some reason, it just hit me that I am not going to be young forever. In fact, someday I will die. My physical body, that I have become so accustomed to, will stop functioning and I will be gone from this world. I know these things are things we all accept, but does it ever really sink in? Does it ever seem real to you? I can't picture anything outside of what I know. I can't imagine ever being out of this body. I really am not afraid. I hope this doesn't sound to macabre. I don't mean it to be. I know that I go to my real home. Maybe death seems unnatural and wrong to us sometimes because we were created to be eternal creatures. I am excited to see what the "other side" looks like. I know it probably isn't anything like what I've been picturing my whole life.