Lasting Beauty

I have always known in my head that "Inner beauty is what matters". It is just something you hear over and over growing up in church, but I don't know that it is in my heart. I heard a song the other day, as I was sweating away on the stair climber at the Y (of all places), that reminded me of how important the inner part of me is as opposed to the outward one. A line of that song said, "Beauty fails, but You are always the same, always faithful." Gosh, that just moved me. God is forever and forever the most beautiful thing we will ever see.
It got me thinking, if I could see what He sees of me, what would that be? I do have to admit it isn't all that pretty. I want to be more caring, genuinely caring. I want to love people, not just act like I do. I want to serve purely, with God as my motivation. I want to be willing to let God bring glory to Himself through me by any means he chooses, not just by the means I want Him to use. I am ashamed to admit that I am focused far to much on the way other's see me. I want to look like I'm being spiritual, but that is completely irrelevant if I am not actually being spiritual on the inside. I am confident that God will bring this fruit of a beautiful inner woman into my life. I'm so glad I don't have to do it myself. When I get to heaven to see God in all His beauty, I won't be saying, "Thank goodness I spent all those hours at the gym, because now I look awesome!". I will be glad that I let God have His way with the inward parts of who I am.